On the brink

I thought last week was the height of the whirlwind of happenings for me, but I was wrong; the storm is just the beginning.

School is only going to get busier; hopefully lady luck will take some mercy on me. Was on an extremely unlucky streak last week, so many uneventful happenings descended on me that it’s hard to think of it as anything other than the lack of luck.

Luck  luck  luck  luck  luck  luck  luck  luck

And.. I’ve been contemplating if I should put this section of the post in because I’ve really been writing so much about death that people might think this is all I talk about. But no, it just seems to be that there’ve been a lot of passings recently.

My dear Lao Sim passed away last Tuesday. For the benefit of those who don’t know, Lao Sim is my nanny who’s been taking care of me and my siblings since we were little. I’ve been preparing myself for this day, because she hasn’t been too well; going in and out of hospitals. But I guess, no matter how much I prepare myself, it will never be enough to pull me through.

To be honest, even after the wake and the funeral, I still cannot come to terms that she’s really gone. I don’t know how long I need to stop hurting.

But I’m also glad that her sufferings are over; that she doesn’t have to feel the pain that complications from diabetes was giving her anymore. But.. she’s gone. For all my 21 years, she’s been there as a grandma to me, and now, she’s become a memory.

Yes, this period is definitely a rough patch.

Silver lining, hope to see you soon.